I read in a book by Richard G. Scott that we should record our spiritual experiences so that we will always remember them. The reason for this blog is for me to record my experiences in life, spiritual and not spiritual so that I can remember them.
I have been thinking about this experience and how sacred it was to me and didn't know if I should share it or not. I have decided to share it. I had a beautiful spiritual experience at church on Sunday the 23rd of October and I don't want to forget it. I have been trying really hard to concentrate in the Sacrament. While I sing the Sacrament hymn I try to think of the words on the hymn. I have been trying hard to think of the Savior and His atonement. I have also been trying to focus more on the talks and now that Conner is older and listens better and doesn't interrupt me while I am trying to listen, it is so much easier to pay attention. There were great talks given on this particular Sunday. The talks ended a little early and although Brent was not conducting he felt he needed to get up and bear his testimony. Because Brent is the Bishop, Conner and I sit in the front of the chapel, right in front of Brent so that we can see each other and be close. He has always been a very good speaker and this time was no exception. His words were so beautiful and it touched my soul deeply. When he sat down I just looked at him and this feeling of love came over me, it was as if my spirit was looking into his spirit. I think for a minute I got a glimpse of how Heavenly Father loved Brent because the love I felt was intense. It is so hard to put into words how I felt. As I was looking at him he looked over at me and he just started crying, we both felt this wonderful feeling of love as we sang the closing hymn "Love at Home". I don't know what I did so that Heavenly Father would bless me with such a wonderful husband. It is such a blessing for me when I see him magnify his calling of Bishop and put his heart and soul into doing what Heavenly Father has asked him to do. Being Bishop and Bishop's wife is not easy. We sacrifice a lot of our time, many days we only see each other for a few minutes. When we are asked to do things that stretch us beyond our ability it is when we grow the most. The thing that we are asked to do may not be easy but when we do it, Heavenly Father is there to help us and then He pours out His blessings upon us. We are not perfect by any means, we will never attain perfection here on this earth but we can always try to do our best. I say this with all humility and not to make ourselves feel better than anyone. I know that God loves me and Brent, I felt it. I have no doubt of that. I am thankful for these experiences because they help me know that we are not alone and that Heavenly Father is there for us. I look back and think of that 21 year old Maria, widowed, single mother, scared of the future, of being alone, thinking the blessings spoken of in my Patriarchal blessing and doubting that they would ever happen. Heavenly Father had a better plan for me. It is through those trials that if we are patient and wait on the Lord's timing, blessings do come. I am eternally grateful to my Heavenly Father for my husband, to me, he came into my life and saved me.
